It's Beyond Time to Start. It's Time to Stay. It's Time to Finish.

I'm Doing the Work.

I've decided that I'm gonna actually try and do the things I set out to do.
I was at work today trying my absolute hardest to be "a mood". You know how people comment under pictures, "mood", upon seeing someone or something they feel they want to be like?

If you don't--now you do (I guess that was for my older sunshining subscribers).

I was taking moments of deep breaths (I never practiced so much as much as when I went to the OBGYN today) and putting on a smile.

I'm at a workplace that is really really good for me. Outside of a pay that is much lower than my worth and most certainly my degree level, I enjoy the place I'm at--but It does not fuel me. Not like music. Not like performing. Not like creating. Not like yelling for absolutely no reason or pushing my friend around Aldi with an ridiculously large cart.

It just doesn't do it for me.
But, what do you do when the place you are in isn't giving you what you want? Do you wander around aimlessly? Complain? Gripe. Moan?
What? You want more than manna for 40 years?
Or do you find a way?
Any way.
To thrive?

I am realizing that the only way I am going to allow myself to go beyond survival mode at work is to make sure that AFTER work I am doing as much of the work I love. Oddly enough, sending this email is a part of that work. Creating my new chapbook, August Joy Trackers and planning a balloon and bubbles Pack Light party is the work.
Taking a social media break (or version of it) so I can refocus on the things I love to do--is all a part of that work.

I implore you to discover the work you love and to actually do what you say you're going to do.

Today.

Yours in the journey,
Sanovia